Thursday, March 29, 2007
mmmms. suddenly feel like blogging.
its already 5 more minutes to midnight.
yeahhs andd i am still here blogging.
just felt that me and dear relationship isnt that stable
as i always thought so. i dunnoh why.
i just cant guess whats thinking on his mind right now.
argghhs. this feeling is just so sucky.
i am just all mixed up larhhs. feel like dying. or rather just
take a break from everything else. & . only focus on him*
just got a fucking feeling that its my fault that
we didnt hadd the time to meetup.
is like i didnt see him since sunday.
& our date on saturday is so so freaking short.
i just miss him alot larhhs. but its like.
monday i wasnt supposed to go out at all.
becos i am resting at home.
my mum wont let me out since i didnt go school.
gosh. if only i wasnt controlled at all. argghhs.
tuesday. fucking power learning programme
made me lost another free day of the whole damn week.
wednesday. artclub &. remedials. yeah yeah.
i always knew that wednesdays are always
one whole day at school.
thursday. chemistry test. argghs.
made me lost my free time with dear again.
and lastly friday. hais dear had to work.
andd yeah. i was somehow happy.
but its another fucking lonely friday larhhs.
mmms. hadd plans for tmr. becos dear working at bugis.
& i date lovell they all out for a midnight show.
and see if i get to see dear for just one freaking minute i also happy.
but but. arghhs.
mummy dont allow me to go out during midnight larhhs.
so freaking lame ass right.
say what law under 17 years old cannot go out after 11pm.
rubbish larhhs okays. will i be so suay. arghhs.
please dont controll me larhhs. arghhs. its only midnight.
just for even one minute to see him for once i also will feel xing fu.
& really felt sorry to dear larhhs. he very teng wo.
say want fetch me to school tmr just to meet me.
andd meet me at bedok interchange.
but how am i gonna explain to daddy.
hes going bonkers if i tell him to fetch me to interchange.
really bo bian larhhs. arghhs. dear was really so so sweet.
arghhhs. regretedd. mmmms.
this few days i hadd been thinking whats hes doing.
these and that. i also dunnoh. sometimes really hoping
that dear would msg me larhs but in the end.
yupps. no need to say larhhs. hais.
sometimes his message so so sweet.
sometimes his message so so plain.
this feeling is sucky too alright. its like.
i dunnoh whats hes thinking larhhs. how pathetic can i be.
so so useless. i dont even know whats my boy thinking..
yeahs. i really cant figure out anything now.
my mind just need to take a break from this whole damn thing .
MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
11:50 PM
