Wednesday, July 18, 2007
late for school this morning lahs. 3years of my secondary school life. first time late for school lol. sing national anthem lahs. what de hell. lol. 3years of secondary school life. first time sing so loud. lol. arbo jiu shi mouth moving er yi lahs. lol.quarrelled with physics teacher again with yiling. what the hell. never bring book. wanna call my mummy. what the fcuk. onoy a book right. then ask me go buy. siaoo. money drop from sky de ahs. lol. then after school. go out block for awhile. then went back to school. for remedial. then after that. 3pm like that. went to 663 waited for baobao. then took bus 66 to damai. meet boyfriend. hahahaas. miss him alot alot lahs. like so many days never seen him. but in fact i everyday meet him lahs. lol. then waited for him. cos we reached there early. until about 430pm. he came out. then his friend birthday ahs. jiu wait for him cut cake hao hao lo. then took bus 22 with yiling baobao & boyfriend. went to macdonalds. slacked awhile. then walked to busstop. waited for 15 with boyfriend. hahas. sniff him lahs. then the bus so packed lahs. jiu miss diao 2buses. lol. the third one took with aaron they all. boyfriend sent me home for the first time. how sweet right. hahahas.
i dunno what happening to me.
mood swing barhhs
i am trying so hard to kick that habit,
but it is bugging me lahs
i cant kick it lahs.
seriously cannot take it le lahs.
but i dont want hurt people around me .
sisters & boyfriend.
will be the last people i wanna hurt lahs.
i am all stressed up lahs.
its been the fourth day le. & i am stress like fuck.
nobody knows lahs. nobody understands lahs.
i am having wild thoughts running through my head lahs.
thinking of ways to hurt myself.
oh my tian. i tried cutting myself with penknife last night
didnt feel the pain. until this morning.
the marks are still there. cant believe i am doing all these,
dots lahs. its lamee & i know.
now whats the problem. i also dunno.
i am fcuking stressedup lahs.
MIA for tonight.
sorry. i dont wanna flare up on anyone.
DEFINITION OF THE DAY
i want to try. to prove to people they can quit. but after i tried. i myself. dont even know how to quit.
MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
8:56 PM
